Lossing My Focus

First day and excited. I thought this will be whole damn different, but same old story. so decided to make some changes explore things that I haven’t done yet before.., well happen to fast,, last thing I knew I was in the Naval Reserve Officer Training Corp.., for fun, unexpectedly I was loving it, out of 100+ join for the Officer training corp now we drop to 24 3rd class officers including me! ( to do our duty till the last drop of our blood. “The only easy day was yesterday”) The Big man always remind us that everything we achieve though will go nothing if when we lose our reason, use that reason. think..!! –QM3 Rolando A Duzon PN– for a commander he done well teaching us. every pain, struggle every. survival test we finish it because of him… One of my Barkada tell me that planning is for those who dont trust their judgment. execute with out planning are those people who believe that every thing has a reason. get it.? My Barkadas always their hanging around having fun. inum parati ng T - R and E.. hahaha… every day is like walking to the Park and then I hit a wall! a very thick wall a wall that every one should be smacking their face to it I lose my focus to my goal, I lose my reason, I lose my mind I let my self hanging around.. not knowing that its not me that is hurting when every time I make damn mistake its my Father .. temptation is always fallow us,,, how to lose them is on us.! I have to make decision, - Go home to have a future or stay and see what happen.! ^^, damn fucking shit.. . . .